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There once was a girl,
when asked to look back
at the year, she cried.

Last night at bible study we individually shared our thoughts of the year passed and the one to come. I dreaded sharing mine, it made me sad and I didn’t want everyone else to be sad, I looked back and saw that I’d been sick and when I got better I didn’t achieve any of the things I’d wanted to. There were some good things but they weren’t necessarily nice good things. I think I learned more and I grew up a bit, I think I grew a bit as a person but since I’m a harsh self-judge it made me see the things I wish I had done differently. My relationship with my husband grew, but in a difficult kind of way, via misunderstanding and anger and then sorting things out. None of it was wasted but I can’t believe that that’s all I have to show for this year.

Still I have more than a lot of people have, I have everything I need, hopefully this next year I will be happier.